Twelfth Star [Should be private, but Tir is a tard]

[heavenfang]

...did he really admit what I think he did? I mean, he was sick, so it could just be skewed because of that, but...

He said he liked how I look with the bandanna off and my long hair...like the same way Kasumi did, but he actually SAID it to me. He had the boldness to do that...

Does that mean he...likes me? The same way Kasumi did?

This is so confusing...I don't know what to do or how to feel. I've never been through anything like this before. I mean, I know there are guys out there who...like other guys like that but...I'm not one of them. At least I don't think I am. And I never would have guessed he was.

My head hurts...

AND YOU CAN SHUT UP RIGHT NOW!

((that last part was directed at his Rune, which is taunting him in his mind right now))

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[tenkai-soul.livejournal.com]

"N-no...it can't be okay...not after what I just did...I can't...I can't apologize enough," Tir spoke in a low, almost broken voice as he placed the snow bag against his head, wincing at the contact.

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[ilpresto.livejournal.com]

"H-hey!" Kazuki stammered, he couldn't stand to hear that kind of sad voice from Tir, "It... It's not that bad. I mean, you already knew, and... Um, you were in my lap just a couple of minutes ago, it's not like I have a problem with it..."

Okay, that was kind of a lie, but he supposed he'd get used to it eventually?

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[tenkai-soul.livejournal.com]

"...but even then...," Tir let out a heavy sigh. This was surprisingly difficult to say.

"I'm a fool, Kazuki. I don't know the first thing about what I'm doing with this. I should have known better. And on top of it all you ASKED to be left alone. I'm an idiot when it comes to things like this...totally lost."

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[ilpresto.livejournal.com]

"And you think I'm not?"

Kazuki was laughing under his breath. "Tir, I've told you I've never had... Someone like that before. That kiss? I had no idea what I was doing. Seriously."

"...Although," he amended a moment later, "I am kind of surprised you didn't know what I was... well, what I was in the bathroom for. I thought it was pretty obvious."

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[tenkai-soul.livejournal.com]

While the first part certainly was comforting, the second statement only further served to drive the humiliation in. Sure, it was obvious to a NORMAL person. But outside of Pahn's joking, that sort of thing just...never came up in his life. And Cleo was usually swift to silence Pahn if he went too far.