The Balance of Life and Death

... That was a bit longer than I expected it to be. Number three...

What happened to Riful?

... The more I think about it... the more it feels like it was my fault.

Even working on my own, I make these kind of mistakes...

I had left Aang behind to go follow the monster that attacked him... I should have made sure he got to safety, I...

I'm so sorry...

I feel sick...

Huh... no matter how many times it happens, you never really get used to it...

Good luck, Kallen.



... For the record, I hate being sick. Not to make you feel worse or anything, Miss Rin. Ugh...


[Police Filter]

Coming forward with some information on the Rika Furude case, though it may just be circumstantial. Either way it's something I'm going to pursue because all it is for me is talking to them...

1) Cecil attempted to cut out his own chip on August 29th.
2) Shortly after saving Cecil from himself, Rika Furude thanked me. In private.
3) She is aware that Cecil's behavior has been increasingly erratic since her death. She vaguely mentioned "punishing" him.

Now I've been going about this as a friend to both of them, not as an officer. Any thoughts on these points, ladies and gentlemen?

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Herm... at least I get to eat Gremio's soup all day...

...So you won't let me silence you again? I suppose that's what I deserve. You manipulated me from the very beginning to free yourself... and I was weak enough to allow it.

I never ignored you. I know things are rough. The things you and I want are just so different, though. I can't be the host you feel like you are entitled to. When did you get like this? Was it feeding on Ted's grandfather? I refuse to believe you were always this cruel. Of course you aren't. Gremio and Nanami are alive BECAUSE of you.

Life and Death. LIFE and Death. You don't have to just send souls to the beyond, or even feed upon them. Every time a child is born, the power you govern over has a hand in that. That means something to you, doesn't it?

...I'm sorry, but I can't let you keep doing this. I won't allow you to play my emotions anymore. If you won't let me do this myself then...

I will find someone who can.




...And yes, the communicator was on. They will find me soon. I know you wont stop it. You'll want to kill them too. You're still hungry. You're always hungry...

All this talk...about murders and redemption.

Well I've got a reality check...no matter what any person, government, or deity might say...there are no pardons. There is no redeeming a bloodied hand. Once someone has killed, there's no turning back to innocence. It's impossible. Once someone has...murdered...they will never have a clean soul again.

That burden will be carried with them to the end of their days...and for some of them, that end will never come...

...did he really admit what I think he did? I mean, he was sick, so it could just be skewed because of that, but...

He said he liked how I look with the bandanna off and my long hair...like the same way Kasumi did, but he actually SAID it to me. He had the boldness to do that...

Does that mean he...likes me? The same way Kasumi did?

This is so confusing...I don't know what to do or how to feel. I've never been through anything like this before. I mean, I know there are guys out there who...like other guys like that but...I'm not one of them. At least I don't think I am. And I never would have guessed he was.

My head hurts...

AND YOU CAN SHUT UP RIGHT NOW!

((that last part was directed at his Rune, which is taunting him in his mind right now))