The Balance of Life and Death

...

I guess this is how she felt... when I just up and left her. It's a little poetic, isn't it? When I needed her most, she wasn't there. It feels cruel, but... I did the same thing to her. I couldn't except the burden because of my fate. I didn't want to cause her pain or misery. But maybe... maybe I just made things worse. But she seemed happy in spite of it all. Then again, given who she was... maybe she had to.

...

Kazuki... no, nevermind. I can't do that anymore. I can't...

...

I can't pretend I'm happy anymore. I can't pretend that this place isn't getting to me. Gremio's death, Kasumi's disappearance, Kazuki's... It's too much, I...

I'm going to be going. I don't know when I'll be back. I'll take some supplies with me. But I need to get my head back together. Maybe some time away from this place will help... I...

Stay strong, Discedo. Even if I falter...


[[ I'm putting Tir on both an IC and OOC hiatus until I can figure out what the hell I'm going with him anymore. This could last awhile. That being said, there will be very few responses to this post, so if you have something to say, you'd better say it now. ]]

Kazuki, Gremio, I might be a little late getting back in. Don't worry about me.

Jowy, Riou, please report in.

Everyone else... Just stay calm, alright? Whatever is out there...

-He trails off, and then he suddenly takes off running. Any other audio turns into very loud and distorted static-

...Riou, damnit...

Sorry to my fellow officers, but Officer Riou is going to be out of commission for awhile. He got busted up something awful by a malice monster. Had he his chip out... No, no use in thinking like that.

The stress just keeps building up. Every time I get a bit of relief, something happens to make it all seem worse again. I'm getting a little sick of the back and fourth. Mentally, emotionally, physically... I'm getting to my breaking point here. After this is all over, I'm just going to fish for a few days. I don't care if I won't catch anything. I need some zen in my life.

Until then, I guess it's back on another patrol. Let's try to have it be one where I don't have to go rescue someone or run into a pack of hungry monsters, eh? Not that I mind these things normally, it's just... too much of anything will kill you.

[Private to Cecil]

We need to talk.

Hmm... it was my birthday yesterday. I must have forgotten.

Twenty years old... I hardly look older than 16. I guess it will take some time before I begin physically aging again.

It's been odd, getting back into the thick of things. It seems as if I can easily find places I'm needed again, at least.

Still need that new hand, tough.

Hey, Kazuki, what's for dinner tonight?

First of all, I'd like to state that, in regards to what happened in the prison cells the other night, I can act as witness. I didn't see much, but I certainly heard something.

Though... I'd like something in exchange for talking.

-There is a long pause as he thinks of a NOT awkward way of wording this.-

I would... I would like...

I would like to be allowed conjugal visits.

...As of some time last night, it is apparent that Officer Naoto Shirogane has left Discedo...

I will be taking over her post here at the police office. The care of prisoners Helter Skelter and Yuca Collabell will be my duty from here on until otherwise noted.

[Locked to Self. Possibly hackable]

...She's gone. All that was left were her hat and spectacles. I think I'll leave these to Kazuki when it's all over...

And so it will begin. I'm sorry, Naoto, but at least... at least you won't be here to see it.

[/Locked to Seld]


[Spoken to Helter and Cecil. Obviously you won't hear this if you aren't there with them]

It's time to eat.

Damnit! These things are damn near everywhere...

Nanami! If your near Kazuki, make sure he's safe, alright! I'll be home soon! I just...

WHERE IS HEAVEN FANG?! Damnit! I just had it!

...a mop? It will have to do.

Here I go! HAVE AT YOU!

It's good... to be home.

All this talk...about murders and redemption.

Well I've got a reality check...no matter what any person, government, or deity might say...there are no pardons. There is no redeeming a bloodied hand. Once someone has killed, there's no turning back to innocence. It's impossible. Once someone has...murdered...they will never have a clean soul again.

That burden will be carried with them to the end of their days...and for some of them, that end will never come...

I...I saw him...He was as real as you and me and...and...

NO! IT WAS IMPOSSIBLE! YOU KILLED HIM AND HE'S NEVER COMING BACK! YOU DESTROYED HIM AND EVERYTHING HE STOOD FOR!

Why...why did it have to be you? Why...Father...






[Voice; Japanese]
...Kazuki, could you...come help me? I'm cold...

(( ooc: Tir saw his father, Teo, as a result of the event. Tir had killed Teo with the Souleater Rune during the war, and his tremendous guilt over this was one of the major shifting points of his character in the game. That was when he decided he would distance himself from others in fear of destroying them. So yeah, he's a bit out of sorts. Also, he's slowly turning into a Tir-sicle outside Latimir in one of the alleyways ))