Tir McDohl (
heavenfang) wrote2008-12-28 01:40 am
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Twelfth Star [Should be private, but Tir is a tard]
...did he really admit what I think he did? I mean, he was sick, so it could just be skewed because of that, but...
He said he liked how I look with the bandanna off and my long hair...like the same way Kasumi did, but he actually SAID it to me. He had the boldness to do that...
Does that mean he...likes me? The same way Kasumi did?
This is so confusing...I don't know what to do or how to feel. I've never been through anything like this before. I mean, I know there are guys out there who...like other guys like that but...I'm not one of them. At least I don't think I am. And I never would have guessed he was.
My head hurts...
AND YOU CAN SHUT UP RIGHT NOW!
((that last part was directed at his Rune, which is taunting him in his mind right now))
He said he liked how I look with the bandanna off and my long hair...like the same way Kasumi did, but he actually SAID it to me. He had the boldness to do that...
Does that mean he...likes me? The same way Kasumi did?
This is so confusing...I don't know what to do or how to feel. I've never been through anything like this before. I mean, I know there are guys out there who...like other guys like that but...I'm not one of them. At least I don't think I am. And I never would have guessed he was.
My head hurts...
AND YOU CAN SHUT UP RIGHT NOW!
((that last part was directed at his Rune, which is taunting him in his mind right now))
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But Tir... He already had his full attention. Kazuki would be lying to say that didn't feel like what he always wanted. What she didn't... couldn't give him.
"I feel like," he exhaled deeply, and placed his forehead in his palms, "I feel like I like you. But I've never been that way... with a guy, before."
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Tir's own thoughts...they went to Kasumi. There was a time when he was certain they could be together...but Kasumi could never get past who Tir was. Tir's status...his legend...his rune...they all held him back before.
But none of those seemed to matter to Kazuki. Kazuki wasn't from his world, and the name McDohl meant nothing to him. He'd already promised to not leave him be, in spite of the rune. And...well...Tir's status as a hero didn't seem to intimidate him either. It was really a blessing.
How could he turn that away? It was what he wanted, after all...he just always imagined it would be from a girl.
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"In my world, it's not like it's that uncommon, but it's like it never even occurred to me, that people around me... or even myself, might be that way. I never thought about it."
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"Kazuki, I...I think I like you...that way."
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Wow, Tir was really NO good at this sort of thing.
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"...I guess? I told you before, I think, I've never... Had a girlfriend, boyfriend," okay, that felt indescribably weird to say, "I'm really, uh, inexperienced is probably the right word."
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The next words that came out of his mouth were perhaps the most courageous thing this war hero had ever managed to choke out of his poor little chest.
"Do you...want to try it?"
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But that's how this sort of thing usually goes, isn't it?
"I, um," there were butterflies flitting around in his chest to excitedly, he couldn't help but smile a little, "I... I think I'd like to, Tir."
[comment log] you dirty minded fella you
"Th-...thank you Kazuki. I...," nope. Words weren't going to do him any good here. Actions would do just fine though, he thought...
Gently, he set down his tea and moved over to Kazuki, his movements swift but still somehow strained under all that had been exchanged. When he finally reaches his...partner? Was that the term? Either way, when he reached Kazuki, he moved to lean before him, an ungloved hand caressing against Kazuki's cheek...
And then, he pressed their lips together in a kiss that wasn't made under any sort of pretense...other than to show his appreciation.
[comment log] well, I almost had it right
"You don't need to..." he protested feebly, but lost his voice when he felt Tir's hand touch the side of his face. His toes curled with anticipation, there was only so much one could do with a gesture like that, but he still made a small sound of surprise when their lips touched.
It was certainly pleasurable, better than their first under the mistletoe since he had the presence of mind to think about what was going on unabashed. He wasn't sure what to do with himself, Kazuki had a feeling he should be doing something back, holding Tir in some way, maybe, but his hands were full. He made do with making his body language as open as possible to show that it was okay, and he was accepting of whatever advances Tir made.
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It was...right.
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He wasn't sure if he was doing this kiss thing correctly either, but he was giving it his best shot.
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"...wow," he said, a slight pant in his voice.
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Tentatively, he moved one hand up to stoke the side of Tir's cheek, and then tangle into his hair. He really did like his hair, black was actually a rarer color where he came from.
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In the back of his head there was a worrying thought, that being like this wasn't like him, that he was supposed to be gentle... But it felt so good.
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Not to mention Kazuki was kind of sensitive to this sort of thing, and admittedly easily excitable.
It was bound to happen eventually.
His kiss slowed down rather abruptly, and his eyes went wide with mortification. He had to pull away. "I, um," he stammered, his attention starting to flit in random directions, anywhere but down, "I uh, I think..."
Oh sweet Lord, have mercy, don't make him say it.
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"What's wrong?" he asked in a whisper.
...And then he felt it.
"Oh...OH!"
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Well if anything, this further proved the attraction, right?
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He could hardly look Kazuki in the eye, and his face was the same shade of red as his tunic. He was glad for the length of his hair at the moment...the bangs did a wonderful job of hiding his face.
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"If you could-- ah!" he gasped, and then winced, "If you could move-- uhnn, owww... These, these jeans are really tight!"
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[comment log] lol stiffly
[comment log] yes sir, I am aware of my own wordplay
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[comment log] that icon never fails to slay me
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